reilyh's lil place

Now. There are many things in my life, that I said “will never happen to me”, I dismissed these things so easily, only for them to apply to me. Like I remember hearing about LGBT people, and I was like “wow, I can’t even imagine” yet here I am, this my face when I realize this:

So here I am now, and I watch this animation, and I’m like wow. I relate to this so so much. These strings that bind people, A have never felt these strings. It is only when my movement became restricted, that i started to feel them. The lower strings feel like chains to me.

When I was robbed of movement, I started to feel things I’ve never felt before, I started to feel the tugging and pulling of these strings, it’s almost like my own body is resisting movement in all of its forms, it’s like it’s revolting against me, asking me to stand still, and just take in the pain.

Like the man in the video says (who is the animator’s father), when you lose movement, you have to reinvent it, you have to learn how to walk, how to hug, how to fix things, you have to relearn the very basics of movement.

Now, if you’re still reading this, and you haven’t watched it, please do!

When the “human” or (humans) break out of these strings and start dancing, it put a smile on my face. Like I had a very grim look at the first half, and I was watching how the people change, and how they try to stand up from the chair. I related to that, oh so much. I just saw a person standing up, yet the expression of that animation, carried so much information.

And so they revolt, they break the strings, “Fuck this” they say, and they start dancing, and the dancing animation is something else, my favorite part is when that baby grows up while dancing, then becomes an astronaut and stuff, that was very cool, so cool, and so wow.

I have felt that when I listen to very cathartic metal albums. Everything hurts, but I feel the need to stand up and start dancing, and I dance, and for a couple of moments, mere minutes, I don’t feel the pain, I feel free. But then my neck and shoulders start to hurt for days, I do follow standard headbanging procedure, but it still hurts.

At some point they revolt against flesh itself, and we have a skeleton dancing, and the movement of that skeleton to me, when it moves, I can hear and feel the sound of bones rubbing together. Then they revolt against their material form, and just fucking, fucking, go abstract. And the dialogue of that man comes back, and it’s really, really lovely.

Please give this animation love, and send it to everyone. I already had it downloaded on 2021. (That sentence doesn’t feel right.)